no one gets to tell me if I've lost or if I've won

List fifteen of your favorite characters from different fandoms, and ask people to spot patterns in your choices, if they're so inclined.

Alphabetical by fandom, because I am neurotic:

Buffy Summers (Buffy the Vampire Slayer)
Michael Westen (Burn Notice)
Kate Beckett (Castle)
Emily Prentiss (Criminal Minds)
Karrin Murphy (The Dresden Files)
The Tenth Doctor (Doctor Who)
Claire Saunders (Dollhouse)
Malcolm Reynolds (Firefly)
Olivia Dunham (Fringe)
Kerowyn (Heralds of Valdemar)
Sam Tyler (Life on Mars)
Kellis-Amberlee Georgia Mason (Newsflesh)
Toby Daye (Toby Daye... series?)
Gwen Cooper (Torchwood)
Diana Barrigan (White Collar)

...there are a couple outliers, but my type literally could not be more obvious if I tried. (And the Doctor Who one was picked mostly at random - you can replace Ten with Martha or River, if you like, because I love them all equally.)

I think the biggest thing it's pointing to is that the only thing stopping me from going into law enforcement is my body repeatedly failing me, but if anyone would like to point out anything else, feel free. XD

I have other things to post today, but those can... wait. Right now, you're getting a meme, and two days of my 30 Days of Who thing, because I was too tired to do it last night.

the TV TROPES meme
...I'm so, so sorry. :|

Day 02 - Your Favorite Classic Series Episode
I am terrible at watching Classic Who. It's not that I don't want to, but I always get fed up waiting for the torrent, and then by the time it's actually downloaded, I forget it exists... One day I'm going to get better at that. So I have trouble picking a favorite, because my knowledge is so spotty - I have seen at least one or two of every Doctor (except maybe Six? I remember nothing of Six...), but there are some companions I haven't seen, and I need to fix that.

I have special love for The Daleks. Team TARDIS shoves a Dalek around like in "Journey's End", but without the special Donna magic! Ian climbs into a Dalek! There is nothing not hilarious and awesome about that. Also Spearhead from Space, because I love Three like kittens, and it is the episode I think of first when I think of him - I do not know why, because unlike every other Classic Doctor, I have seen, like, half his episodes. And there's Castrovalva, which made me fall in love with Nyssa and Tegan and Five. And it has the Master! ...being really sketchy at Adric... Yyeeaaah.

I think if I had to pick an absolute favorite, though, it would be City of Death. Four and Romana running around in Paris! Douglas Adams episode! The best special effects ever! (...I wish I had a .gif to demonstrate this point. As it is, you'll just have to believe me - THEY ARE AWESOME. And by awesome, I mean hilarious.)

Day 03 - Your Favorite New Series Episode
I'm counting two-parters as one episode (and lumping Utopia in with the two-parter that comes after it, because I can), so!

Favorite of all time is definitely "Utopia"/"Sound of Drums"/"Last of the Time Lords". It's the end of my favorite season - I think S3 is the most coherent in terms of story arc so far, because standalone episodes are actually to set up the finale instead of just tossing some arc words around and calling it a day. Plus, the episodes by themselves just make me happy (and yes, I did watch this before I watched the rest of S3...). I don't even mind the basic concept of the Tinkerbell Jesus Doctor, I just wish the special effects had been toned down a little (...okay, a lot). Martha, Jack and Ten are my very favorite Team TARDIS, and Martha Jones saved the world by telling stories. I cannot emphasize the awesomeness of that enough.

Close runners up include "The Empty Child"/"The Doctor Dances", "The Girl in the Fireplace", "Silence in the Library"/"Forest of the Dead", "Midnight", and "Time of Angels"/"Flesh and Stone". Yeah, I know, all but one of those have Moffat in common. Shut up. It's like he has a list of my story kinks and goes and hits them on purpose. And I don't mind at all.

( The Master list )

The More Loving One by W.H. Auden

Looking up at the stars, I know quite well
That, for all they care, I can go to hell,
But on earth indifference is the least
We have to dread from man or beast.

How should we like it were stars to burn
With a passion for us we could not return?
If equal affection cannot be,
Let the more loving one be me.

Admirer as I think I am
Of stars that do not give a damn,
I cannot, now I see them, say
I missed one terribly all day.

Were all stars to disappear or die,
I should learn to look at an empty sky
And feel its total dark sublime,
Though this might take me a little time.

Top five things from kawaiispinel and yetregressing. You can still ask for other top five things here, if anyone's interested. The following lists are in no particular order, so don't put too much stock in where something falls on the list. I'm too lazy to organize these things.

( Top Five Torchwood Episodes )

( Top Five Epic Fics You'd Love to Write One Day )

( Top Five Fiction Kinks )

( Top Five Favorite Moments in the Rift )

( Top Five Favorite Stories You've Written )

( Top Five Favorite Teams in Fiction )

( Five Characters You Wish You Could Write But Just Can't )

( Five Shows I'd Recommend to yetregressing )

I went back to bed. I still feel like Sam Tyler, and am not entirely convinced the universe is not, in fact, out to get me.

...I have nothing useful to add here, so have a meme.

THE ANONYMOUS WRITING FEEDBACK MEME
(Also, this code is dumb and is stretching my flist. I fixed it.)

If this one person on tw100 doesn't stop reviewing every drabble anyone posts with the same two-word comment, I swear I'm going to punch them. Or go and spam their last twenty posted stories with the same comment, but they might actually take that as a compliment, so maybe not.

I slept about four or five hours last night. ...this morning. Whatever. Didn't mean to, I just went to bed at five or six AM, woke up around ten... I also walked into a door last night. In my defense, I was trying to avoid turn on any lights so I wouldn't wake Evie and Jaqui, but... the point still stands. I walked into a door.

I've been kind of... twitchy lately, just in that... every time one of my friends talks about school, I feel sick. And... you know, I don't really mind that much - I'm not trying to guilt trip anyone about it or anything - I just... I'm jealous. God, I'm jealous. I want to be in school and it's just looking like less and less of a possibility and I absolutely hate that. I feel inferior and like a complete failure, and it doesn't help that this is exactly what my mother predicted would happen before I went to school, and I hate her for saying it and I hate myself for proving her right.

Whatever. I'm just going to... stop before I have to cry or punch things.

I figured I would throw one of these up since everyone else is doing it and I already had an account on the site...

Get your own valentinr

I'm thinking about cutting my hair again, because... even though it's getting to where I can pull it back now, it's touching the back of my neck even when I do, and it's both bothering me and freaking me out. I don't know why, because it never used to bother me, but... eh. For whatever reason, now it is.

Earlier today a song came on my iTunes that... I guess I haven't listened to since I left the city. I don't even remember now which song it was or anything, but it came on, and about halfway through it made something click in my brain and for a second I was walking down the stairs to the subway at Christopher Street, and it hurt. The city's the first place I've really felt like I belonged for... years now. Feeling at home... that's a big deal for a military brat who's been moving around the country half her life. And I miss it.

And looking back, it was probably just as much or more that I had a good support system there and a group of friends I could trust with absolutely anything than the city itself, but I had to leave all of it really abruptly, and it's all one thing in my head. The city and the people and knowing what I was doing with my life and... everything.

We're moving to Arizona soon. In a few months. There is at least one good friend out there, and could possibly be more in the future, so that will help. (It will also help that it is not Florida, a place I have hated since the first time I moved here in my sophomore year.) I just want to be home again, instead of just someplace I'm staying. The nice thing about being a military brat is that it tends not to matter where, geographically, home is. The trouble is finding it.

And... I don't know... have a meme! (Kittens.)

Look at your LJ userpics list. If you have fewer than twenty icons, post them all. If you have between twenty and fifty icons, pick every fifth one. If you have between fifty and seventy-five icons, pick every seventh one. If you have over seventy-five icons, pick every tenth one. List them on your LJ, and tell everyone exactly why you have it, why it's interesting to you, and what significance it has.

( In which I ramble... often about more than just the icon... )

I meant to write today. I just... kept getting sidetracked by OMGEXPLOSION on the Rift. Not a literal explosion this time. It's worse than that. I suppose I could still write something today, it's just a matter of calming down enough to do so. Rrrrh.

And since I occasionally do memes and I feel like I could use it right about now...
Pass a Secret Note ✘ Meme

...Right. I'm just gonna go grab my notebook and try to write something in between tags. I don't know what, but hopefully it'll calm me down, because my heart is going way too fast right now.

Nina is here. Unlike normal people, we get together for social events and... sit here on our laptops and RP. But this way, I can start cackling randomly and freak Nina out! (I don't mean to. These things just happen.) Nina bought us Chinese food too, and for this I adore her. This is especially good because Evie and I have... almost literally no food in our house.

Yesterday, I realized I knew exactly how to fit Nate Cavanaugh into On a Saturday. And on reflection? It's ridiculously obvious. And a little terrifying. This fills me with glee, especially because Nate is back in my head and I missed her. Nate, you are my favorite.

I apologize to anyone I'm slow at threading with today. Magi, Evie and I are having a demonstration that is full of awesome and Wacky Narration. Guys, we're full of crack, I hope you know. But CRACK OF AWESOME.

Still trying to figure out what I want to write for writerinadrawer this week. I mean, it's an awesome prompt and I do have an idea, but... I just think everyone is going to write that, so I don't know.

And here, have a meme from minkhollow.
Comment on this post, and I will choose seven interests from your profile and ask you to explain what they mean, and why you are interested in them. Post this along with your answers in your journal so that others can play.

( I am the leader, dammit! )