allfireburns | Entries tagged with writing: yuletide

Happy new year, everyone!

Normally I post my word count for the year around now, but Iiii really don't want to talk about that. Let's just say... abysmal? Seriously, it's deeply depressing if I let myself think too much about it, so I am just going to... not do that.

Happy things? I signed up for

getyourwordsout, so that will hopefully be helpful getting me... back to somewhere that feels more normal for me. And

jaeled has issued a challenge to enter writing contests with her, and I am pretty much incapable of saying no to a direct challenge. Or to Jae.

ALSO, now that Yuletide fics are no longer anonymous, I can link to mine! (I'll post it on my writing journals properly another time. When I don't have so many things on my damn to do list.)

I wrote a Dresden Files/Sparrow Hill Road crossover for

ordinarygirl. Could've been a lot better, as A) I am out of practice, and B) I was writing up to (and past) the deadline and so had no time to revise, but I still like it a lot.

...plus, now I can justify writing a second one once Ghost Story is out. You have no idea how excited I am for that.

NOW, I need to go... finish off the last few items on my to do list. So I can get to work on the second one. YES, I HAVE MULTIPLE LISTS AT ONCE. WHAT.

Current Mood: restless
Current Music: What About Everything - Carbon Leaf
Crossposts: http://allfireburns.livejournal.com/381329.html

Dear Yuletide Author:

You get a gold star already just for offering to write one of these fandoms. You already have my love and adoration. All of the optional details are just that - completely optional. No matter what you write, I will love it. I am really, really easy to please when it comes to fic written for me.

Generally speaking, I like teams and chosen families, and snark and banter. I love angst, but it's not required at all - happy fic is fine too, and humor (gallows or otherwise) is good no matter what is actually happening in the fic. "Casefic" (for whatever value of "case" a given fandom might imply) is always good - I'm very fond of apocalypses, people killin' monsters/zombies/whatever, and really cool/unique applications of magic and/or science. Holiday fic is always a happy thing, as is general winter fic - winter is a magical thing for me and I love it no matter what. Not so big a fan of porn; I have no moral opposition to it or anything, it's just not my fannish happy place.

( Newsflesh - Mira Grant )

( Toby Daye - Seanan McGuire )

( The Dresden Files - Jim Butcher )

( Sparrow Hill Road - Seanan McGuire )

Crossposts: http://allfireburns.livejournal.com/378790.html

I am somewhat blah on the subject of Christmas right now. It's not a bad blah, really. It's a neutral blah. I am just not sold on the existence of Christmas this year. (I might want to experiment with Christmas lights next year. The colored kind. I honestly think that might be my problem.)

The possibly imaginary holiday did bring me wonderful things, though. Like an awesome mix-and-fic from Jae. And MORE ICONS FOR EMILY from Chris. And some books and a pentacle from Beka. (The pentacle is actually for one of my headvoices, not me, but I still love it a lot. NO POINTS FOR GUESSING WHICH HEADVOICE.) And I have three Yuletide fics sitting in the archive waiting for me to be able to read them, so that's exciting too.

SPEAKING OF WHICH. YULETIDE. I FINISHED A STORY FOR IT TO MAKE UP FOR MY FAILURE AT WRITING MY ACTUAL ASSIGNMENT.

...you guys, it is longer than anything else I have written this year (assuming we count chapters of On a Saturday seperately instead of together). I am so proud of me. I still don't know if I love the fic like kittens or want to set it on fire, but it's done and that is a wonderful thing all by itself.

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Storm Windows - Jeffrey Foucault
Crossposts: http://allfireburns.livejournal.com/380950.html

This post is just going to be a succession of unconnected... things, because I cannot be bothered to make it coherent. Deal with it. :|

1) I had to default on Yuletide. This annoys me, but I had nothing written and no ideas, and even if I had somehow managed to whip out something before the deadline, it would likely only be disappointing to the recipient, which I did not want. I'm hoping I'll be able to write some treats for people or something to make myself feel better. There are some fandoms I am dying to write in, so hopefully something will click.

2) I've been canon reviewing for

w_for_wizard for months now. Because I'm dumb and keep picking up book characters (...okay, two). And because I keep trying to read, like, four books at once, this canon review is moving along more slowly than some glaciers. But I finished reading Fool Moon yesterday. And typed up my notes... which turned out to be three times longer than my notes for SF. The rest of this canon review is going to be fun. (The idea is that if I take enough notes, when I'm done I will only have to drag out the books when I need to remember a specific line or description or something. Chances this theory is true: slim to none.)

( More TDF rambling under the cut - mention of That Spoiler for Changes )

Anyway. I really need to speed up my canon review if I want to be done by the time Ghost Story is out. Which... would be really, really nice, but doesn't seem too likely at this point.

3) SO I AM HAVING THIS PROBLEM WITH RP. ...before anyone freaks out, it isn't with a specific game or person. It's more a general sort of thing that is bothering me, possibly because I am just neurotic and worry about these things way more than I really should.

( ANOTHER CUT. This one just in case you don't care about my RP flailing. )

4) Possible Christmas party with Beka tomorrow. (Uh. Later today, actually, at this point.) I might have to be sociable. With people. Out in the world. Oh god I might die.

...I mean. Getting out of the house is awesome and all, but OH GOD PEOPLE. STRANGERS, EVEN. I AM NEVER GOOD AT THAT SORT OF THING. *Hides forever* ...and I should probably go to bed right fucking now if I want to get anything done before I have to go out in the world. Crap.

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Saviours - Thea Gilmore
Crossposts: http://allfireburns.livejournal.com/380431.html

MY LAPTOP SCREEN IS FLICKERING WEIRD COLORS AND IT'S FREAKING ME OUT. It's not... like... constant, and it goes away if I move the screen, for some reason, but I am still trying not to have a panic attack over it, because lakfjdklfjd MY FUCKING LAPTOP. If it has a total meltdown or something, I will not be able to get a new one.

At least I backed up my music and writing and shit on the external not that long ago, so I'm not as freaked out as I could be. It is still distressing, and it's making everything else in the world way more stressful than it has to be - when I reach a certain level of stress, suddenly everything is the end of the world. EVERYTHING.

THERE ARE FIVE TAGS IN MY INBOX AND I WILL NEVER CLIMB OUT.

I HAVE AN IMPENDING DEADLINE FOR YULETIDE AND NOTHING WRITTEN, AND I SUCK AT WRITING ANYWAY AND I AM GOING TO DIE A MISERABLE FAILURE.

MY HANDS HURT BECAUSE THEY'RE DRY, BUT HAVING LOTION ON MY SKIN MAKES ME WANT TO WIPE THEM OFF ON EVERY SURFACE I CAN REACH AND MAKE THIS WEIRD HIGH-PITCHED KEENING NOISE LIKE I'M IN PAIN.

...okay, that part I do regardless of whether I am overstressed. I just really hate stuff on my hands.

I realize that all of these reactions are totally irrational. Intellectually, I'm fine. But I'm still getting all the emotional overload, complete with my heart freaking out and randomly wanting to cry over the stupidest things, and it makes it really hard to get anything done.

Good news: The snow melted yesterday, but it's coming back now. Which is a relief, because winter cold without snow is just depressing.

Also good news: I finally managed to figure out (some of) the plot of the angel series. Weirdly, it was while I was trying to work out the fairy book, which has nothing at all to do with the angel series. Or angels at all, except in that one... exists, largely off-screen. And now I think I need to rewrite half my background info on angels and demons. Awesome. :|

Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: Things That Scare Me - Neko Case
Crossposts: http://allfireburns.livejournal.com/380290.html

WHY IS THE WORLD SO COLD? ...the strange thing is that I was fine for the past week when it was actually snowing. Constantly. But today the sun was up, and now I feel like it's so cold I might die. This does not make sense.

...and as I was typing this, I looked up and realized the window was slightly open. That explains a lot. And then I had to spend several minutes with my hands going numb peeling this weird sticky foam out of the window so it would actually latch when I closed it again. At least now the heat will hopefully remain inside the house...

I have not started my Yuletide story. I don't know what I'm doing for my Yuletide story. There's actually nothing wrong with the fandom or the assignment, it's just... almost too easy for me? I can't really say any more without giving serious hints about what fandom it is, but I am mostly annoyed at myself right now.

Canon reviewing right now to see if something will hit me, and desperately hoping I don't end up writing straight up to the deadline (though it's not out of the realm of possibility).

...man, this post is whiny. I just don't think I have anything else right now. Uh... Have a picture of Michaelcat forcing his love on a very uncomfortable boppy. (He thinks they're cuddlebuddies now. Ace disagrees.)

Current Mood: cold
Current Music: Drought - Vienna Teng
Crossposts: http://allfireburns.livejournal.com/379986.html

no one gets to tell me if I've lost or if I've won

when they ask you what befell me, say my story is not done

Entries tagged with writing: yuletide

Holiday quiet on these streets, except for some reason me...

Yuletide! :D

I sit alone just looking at the world through a storm window...

So come on now, we've got our sides to pick...

Same birds that followed me to school when I was young...

Let winterlight come and spread your white sheets over my empty house...

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