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allfireburnsBlah. Just... blah.
1) Everything in the universe is conspiring to make me miss the City like burning. It is driving me crazy, but there is literally nothing I want more right now than to just sit in a park all day long. Or ride around the subway forever. Though really, I'd take human contact and/or some space to myself and the ability to leave the damn house. Why is the bus stop so far away?
2) Everything hurts and nothing makes it stop hurting. It's making me angry and snappish at the world, which is why I've been avoiding the internet at large. Except that not talking to people then started making me even more cranky. That's... not how this is supposed to work. :\
3) Random anxiety can DIAF. I keep getting randomly panicky over nothing at all, and there's no way to fix it, because I don't know what's bothering me. This is not helping my general world-hatred.
4) I am beginning to think I should just... stop signing up for things for a while. Every time I do, I start wanting to write anything but what I should be writing, and then I tell myself I can't do that until I finish whatever I'm supposed to be working on, and I end up not writing anything at all.
All of which is a roundabout way of saying I may be dropping out of![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
writerinadrawer (again), unless I manage to remember where I was going with this fic and finish it in the next... five hours or so. I know I'll feel weirdly guilty if I drop out (even if probably no one will care but me), but I hate stressing myself out over this shit.
...I'm too distracty right now to do the 30 Days of Who meme right now. I'll get back to it later today. Probably.
1) Everything in the universe is conspiring to make me miss the City like burning. It is driving me crazy, but there is literally nothing I want more right now than to just sit in a park all day long. Or ride around the subway forever. Though really, I'd take human contact and/or some space to myself and the ability to leave the damn house. Why is the bus stop so far away?
2) Everything hurts and nothing makes it stop hurting. It's making me angry and snappish at the world, which is why I've been avoiding the internet at large. Except that not talking to people then started making me even more cranky. That's... not how this is supposed to work. :\
3) Random anxiety can DIAF. I keep getting randomly panicky over nothing at all, and there's no way to fix it, because I don't know what's bothering me. This is not helping my general world-hatred.
4) I am beginning to think I should just... stop signing up for things for a while. Every time I do, I start wanting to write anything but what I should be writing, and then I tell myself I can't do that until I finish whatever I'm supposed to be working on, and I end up not writing anything at all.
All of which is a roundabout way of saying I may be dropping out of
writerinadrawer (again), unless I manage to remember where I was going with this fic and finish it in the next... five hours or so. I know I'll feel weirdly guilty if I drop out (even if probably no one will care but me), but I hate stressing myself out over this shit....I'm too distracty right now to do the 30 Days of Who meme right now. I'll get back to it later today. Probably.
