It's not the way I'm meant to be...

[allfireburns]

I am so. Fucking. Tired. I don't even know why. I went to bed later than I'd have liked (not in general, just for the level of tired I was feeling by midnight last night, and I stayed up two hours past that), and got up earlyish (by which I mean 9:30) so Evie and I could go over to Saundra's and have marshmallows (which were amazing, by the way). And I took a nap immediately after getting home, and still feel like curling into a ball and not waking up for about a day and a half. WHY?

And I feel nauseous. I'm going to have a cup of coffee anyway - it won't make the nausea go away, but I'm so fucking tired, and that, at least, I can try to deal with.

I'm feeling... more than a little spazzy. I keep trying to do a million things at once and then freaking out when I can't. I'm thinking too fast and I don't like it at all. I did finish the Conrad Hotel page on the RiftWiki. Need to redo the map for the basement layout (I want it neater, not on notebook paper, and the layout itself has undergone some changes during gameplay that aren't reflected on the map), but I don't have a working scanner and really don't feel like fucking around with GIMP right now, so I'll have to do that later.

And I need to do Gwen's storylines, as soon as I find something to center them around. I'm trying to decide between Torchwood quotes, or lines from the various songs I've collected on my Jack/Gwen playlist, most of which are... really just good Gwen songs no matter what (The Fall of the World's Own Optimist, What If No One's Watching, Not a Pretty Girl... a couple others I can't think of now...). That playlist, by the way, is going to turn into a very sketchy mix. Not in the usual way certain pairings turn out sketchy (I have an exceedingly sketchy Walter/Molokov mix I still need to finish, and that Martha/Master), but... just a little unsettling, when you really think about it. 'Cause Jack doesn't mean to, but he fucks his kids up. Lots.

Also need to finish the Doctor's profile, but I really can't get my brain to focus well enough for that now. It's distressing.

I now have three characters I want to bring into the Rift. Four if Rizzy gives in and brings in that one other character, but... we're not talking about that now. One angel (who is actually not going to be on the angels' side, but is going to be completely neutral and it will be awesome), one demon, and one Slayer. Yep. Argh. I really need to find a way to kill at least Kara soon. I'm not ready to let go of any of the others, though a couple have targets on their backs for some time in the far future, but I could get rid of Kara, much as I love her. And it would at least lessen my character overload.

On second thought, caffeine may not be the best idea now. Considering that despite the tiredness, my brain is going to fast and my hands are shaking a little. What the hell? *Headdesks*

Should probably put this on the Rift filter, because the majority of this post is Rift-related, but... I just don't care that much right now. Sorry to non-Rift people. I still love you.

Comments

[draegonhawke.livejournal.com]

(Will they ever be stable? Is that something in their future?)

Yyyyeah. I'm thinking Maya may get caught in the crossfire--poor, poor Sam--and Angel may be wrestled into it somehow, and possibly Anya may go down if I want to drive Malek to jihad. (Am I allowed to make that joke? Or is it just too much, with the Arabic name?)

[allfireburns.livejournal.com]

(...Um. Far future, maybe? As in, millennia, assuming the Doctor survives that long? It's a process.)

Oh, man. Sam might break a little. (Not that I mind breaking Sam, 'cause I'm a sadist, but...) And oh, angry!Malek is something I would very much like to see. *Approves. And is apparently very bloody-minded*

[draegonhawke.livejournal.com]

(Kids. ...kids.)

So, what exactly does it take for someone to register as an innocent to Angel-sense? I mean, what's the basic criteria it takes to lose your wings over someone?

[allfireburns.livejournal.com]

I was actually wondering that earlier today. It hasn't been an issue thus far, and... yeah, gonna have to ask Rizzy on that one.

[draegonhawke.livejournal.com]

...I'm just going to be over here, snerking at that icon.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_chibidragon_/]

Yes, it is a good question. And it's something that I've had go through my head several times in attempts to answer it. Thankfully it hasn't been an issue yet so I haven't had to come up with the answer, but...

Any demon is not innocent in Angel-sense. Even if the demon hasn't done anything bad, yet. Haha, poor demons.

Uh, as for humans/wanderers/and the like... the definition gets a bit hazy and more difficult to define. Murder is definite in the not innocent. Cold blooded murder. Rape. If someone is guilty of those traits, they are not considered innocent and can be killed by an angel without a loss of wings.

[draegonhawke.livejournal.com]

So, someone such as, say, a non-corrupt police officer might hypothetically, if we wanted him/her to, register as innocent. <.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_chibidragon_/]

:o"

Yes, I should... think so.

It's a really hazy line, which is why most angels try to avoid killing humans if at all possible.