no one gets to tell me if I've lost or if I've won

Haha. I've never really had that feeling (mostly because I've never had a girlfriend), but I imagine it'd be kind of like the feeling I had when I invited my brother into my room because I was cleaning up and then we were going to watch TV, but he's not technically allowed to be in the common room by himself. (He's also not technically allowed to be in my room with the door closed--or really be in my room at all--but it was move-in day and no one was around.) I was just like, "I reaaaaaaally hope the dorm master doesn't come knocking on my door." Because having a boy in your room with the door closed? NOT. ALLOWED.