Because maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me...

[allfireburns]

I need to learn to control some of the writing habits I've developed when I'm writing in public. Mostly because I just look insane.

Like... I have a habit of saying dialogue aloud to myself as I write it, just to make sure it sounds right. Which, you know, is well enough when I'm alone. But lately I haven't had the time to write when I'm alone, so I just do it in whatever spare moments I have during the day. I'm working at the front, it gets slow, nobody comes by for a good ten or fifteen minutes, and... yeah.

So yesterday, I'm standing there by the front register, frowning at my notebook and rambling to myself in Ten-voice. And someone walks in. And I don't notice for a good fifteen seconds.

...I think I rather disturbed him, but that's okay! (But of course, it had to be Ten-voice. Because he always sounds the most crazy. *Facepalm* I am a huge dork, guys! I hope you all realize this!)

In other news, I've started the fic that is going to thoroughly break me to write. I would just like to say as a disclaimer beforehand, I DO NOT HATE MARTHA. I repeat, I DO NOT HATE MARTHA! She's actually my favorite character in the entirety of Doctor Who. I just... do horrible, horrible things to her.

That is all.

Just that after I finish this (and God knows when that'll be - it promises to be a long and painful fic) I need to write a long, happy story. Not that I really have any plotbunnies available for happy fics - the other two long-fic plotbunnies I have are also angsty. ...Well, there is that one with Torchwood...

Comments

[lionessvalenti.livejournal.com]

I've found that the more I like a character, the more shit I put them through. It's very odd.

[allfireburns.livejournal.com]

This is true. But with Martha I'm going... a lot farther than I ever have with any other character. And I find myself worrying I'm not as good a person as I would like to think.

[kawaiispinel.livejournal.com]

...I think I rather disturbed him, but that's okay! (But of course, it had to be Ten-voice. Because he always sounds the most crazy. *Facepalm* I am a huge dork, guys! I hope you all realize this!)

You are adorable. I giggled so much at that mental image.

And awr, I feel you on the character abuse thing. I am horribly famous for doing really, really horrific things to all of the characters that I love dearly. (This includes originals. Pagiel, anyone?)

[allfireburns.livejournal.com]

*Snerk* Yeeeaaaah. It was amusing. Would've been more amusing if it happened to someone other than me...

And I feel better about it, now that you've reminded me of that. ♥

[kawaiispinel.livejournal.com]

*laughs* Yeah, those sorts of things usually are. Then again, if it was me who had done it, I would have probably played it up or something, because I have Zero Shame. Insane? Me? Naaaah.

And I feel better about it, now that you've reminded me of that. ♥

Heee! ♥ Making people feel better through character abuse, that's me. (Sorry, Paige.)

[allfireburns.livejournal.com]

*Snerk* I very well might have played it up if I weren't at work. That does make me tone it down a bit.

[kawaiispinel.livejournal.com]

*snort* That's true. The joys of fandom-related craziness are not worth getting fired over. XD

[allfireburns.livejournal.com]

All I have to do is find a job where no one minds. *Grins* ...Of course, considering that I intend to someday make my living writing television... Yeah, that works out just fine.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_chibidragon_/]

*GIGGLES*

I HEART YOU.

<3

Awww. I'm SO FREAKING EXCITED FOR THIS FIC THAT WILL COMPLETELY BREAK ME TO READ. :D

I don't know. Why. I mean even the writers of DW. Putting her through the year that wasn't. Her and ONLY her walked the world and experienced all of it first hand.

Something about her character begs to be tortured.

That sounded SO dirrrty.

<33

[allfireburns.livejournal.com]

Hee. I am glad to have amused me? Seriously, when you meet me, you're going to think I'm a total nutcase.

And... um... yeeeaaaah. This is The Year that Never Was, but worse. It's an AU Year that Never Was.

And the torture that sounds so wrong? ...Yeah. Um. You're right about on target there. I hate my brain. Lots. If you want to see the first part, it's up in the comments of my alphabet meme.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_chibidragon_/]

i AM a total nutcase.

So I think it will be a good realization to... have.

*snuggles Martha*

[technicolornina.livejournal.com]

ZOMG I DO THAT TOO!! *dances with you*

[trollopfop.livejournal.com]

I do that. Mmmyup.

I also have the lovely headvoices that gank words. Doyle did that with "Irish". Angel did that with "Spike". And now Ten has done it with "banana". I am now incapable of saying the world "banana" like a normal American.

(Though when Ten was hanging around at work, it was so great, because Pedro the Catering Guy thought I was hot. So when Ten exclaimed with dismay, "You're out of bananas?!", the very next day, I got a banana for free. And, for the rest of the time I worked there, random free bananas. I could not make this up.)

[allfireburns.livejournal.com]

*Gigglefit* That's awesome. A little strange. But awesome. (Although lately, banana just sounds so much better the way Ten says it.)