A droplet-based transmission means I sneeze and then you die...

[allfireburns]

So I just spent the entirety of this week trying not to die of some horrible deathplague. I am almost better now, as far as I can tell, though still a tiny bit feverish, but my entire torso feels bruised from the inside out from coughing constantly, and there is so much stuff that piled up while I wasn't looking. I have a billion tags to do (and a plot to shove along, though probably not until Jae returns from Canadaland), and apps to read, and so many things I need to write, most of which I am completely lost on, and the house is covered in stuff and I am dying to clean it except I'm still wobbly on my feet so, you know, I should probably hold off on that for a while longer but it is driving me crazy. And I managed to infect Beka, and I feel really guilty even though it was totally unavoidable, and I want to keep her home and make sure she doesn't die and I can't and...

I think I have used more "ands" in this post than should be legal in the space of so few sentences. In summary:
1) I'm not dead, despite the universe's attempts to change that.
2) I am more than a little overstressed at the moment, because the world does not go away just because I'm incapable of dealing with it.
3) I need a hug. Or possibly someone to hold my hand and convince me that a) I do not have to tackle everything at once and b) I am not going to die under the weight of all the goddamn stuff I have to do.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

I am your mom. And I miss you so much. I hate that I have to google you to send you messages, AJ. I love you and miss you so, so much. I am not sure why you are so angry or not in touch with me, but it makes me sad. I love you. We all love you. You can be Aubrey and still be a part of your family, Aub. You should know that. I just know I love you, and I miss my child.

[(Anonymous)]

And by the way, if someone in the family gets sick or dies, this is the way I'll tell you. Via google. Because you won't respond to my e-mails. Do you realize what you are leaving behind?